Tattoos

Tattoos are becoming more and more common with our generation. Especially in my area and my age group it seems that everyday someones getting one. This is something that was considered a horrible thing to do in the time our parent's grew up. Only "convicts" and "bikers" had tattoo's. As the times change this is something that is not true anymore.My parents were always against the idea of their kids getting tattoos. And as all my cousins began to do it they became more understanding of it. & i have to admit that i have one I got my tattoo on my ankel. Everyone I told said it would absolutely kill,They told me things like that I would have to hold my breathe while he was tattooing me and they discouraged me to do it.I shouldn't have believed the hype, it did not hurt as much as I thought it would have. I can't say that I enjoyed the experience. I don't think anyone would enjoy being stabbed with needles over and over again for a half hour, but don't believe the hype. If you are considering a tattoo but are hesitating because of the pain, I would encourage you to go for it. I got a a heart with a C in the middle, which is something that meant a lot to me. It means a lot to me because i made the guy trace over my grandmothers C that she makes so now i always carry a piece of her with me

Christmas shopping .. What to get ?

during christmas the only thing on peoples minds is what do i get them for a present. everyone is so concerned with getting someone the best christmas present. and i will agree it is a very hard thing to do. but everyone makes it way to important anywhere you go in the months of november to december is what do you think i should get so and so for christmas.

Family

my family is a very close family, and over a year and a half ago my aunt and her three kids have moved to florida. this has been very hard for my family because we were always at their house since they lived upstairs from my grandmothers house. so it was expected that everytime you went to my grandmothers house and run into my aunt and one of her kids. last christmas it was very different because she wasn't here to celebrate it with us. but this christmas she is flying down because she realized how important the holiday is to our family. and she doesnt want her kids to not take part in the family traditions that we have and carry on. so i am counting down the days until december 19th !

Break

I cannot wait for winter break because since has been my first semester in college i have barely had time to myself. so this break will give me a ton of time to myself which is much needed. I never realized that college was going to be so stresseful and filled with so much work as this semester was. next semester i will be in all different classes though which is exciting because i want to venture out a little more and see what i like and how i can handle certain classes. and who knows maybe something i thought i wouldnt like i will turn out to love. we'll just have to wait till january to see how everything turns out. also i can't wait for my friends from highschool to come home for a whole month so i can see them. i know we just had thanksgiving break but it was only a few days now they will be home for a whole month which is a lot longer then five days.

Christmas

You can smell it in the air christmas is just around the corner. now i know since im eighteen years old i shouldn't love christmas as much as i do but i can't help it. i love christmas because i love how my family gets together christmas morning to have christmas breakfast. this is a tradition that was started way before i or any of my cousins were born and my mom and her brothers and sisters have carried it on to us. last christmas was the first time that we were missing one of the families because they had moved back to florida but this year their coming back just for christmas which is very exciting because the last time i have seen them was in june so its been a while. also this year will be different too because my cousins and i will be doing most of the cooking this year. because our main chef is undergoing a very important surgery so we are trying to give him less work to do while he is recovering so theres less stress for him. overall i just love christmas because it just brings out the good in many people if you never noticed that.

New Semester

My feelings towards ending this semester are mixed. half of me is excited to be moving onto other classes but then i am also sad because i am nervous about how my new classes will turn out to be. I'm starting to wonder if my classes are going to be filled with new people and are very challanging or if they aren't as challanging as i expected them to be. I hope that they will help me decide what i would like to be so by the end of this year i can declare my major. when i first started college i wanted to be a nurse but now since my classes in psychology i am leaning more towards social services. Next semester i will be taking my core classes as math english 1100 religion and discover New York i will also be taking another psychology class which i am very excited for.

The Dark Knight

Even since the summer when i had seen the movie The Dark Knight i had been counting down the days till the movie comes out on dvd. This movie was one of the best movies i have seen in theatres in a while. Even since i was little i was always obessed with the movie batman and this new addition to the collection has made the obsession grow. When i found out the movie was coming out on December 9th i have been counting down the days. I cannot wait to have the movie for myself so i can watch it whenever i want.

Thanksgiving

On thanksgiving i woke up early and helped my mother cook. Since my grandmother is getting older now my mother, uncle and aunt all spilt the cooking up. My mom and I usually get the most things to cook since i help her cook as well they figure that we can get it done quicker then they could. We finally finished cooking at 1:30 and had a half hour to spear of just sitting around and watching old home movies. When we finally got to my grandmothers house we did what we do for ever holiday and set up the table and then sit down for the beginning of the meal. This thanksgiving wasn't as crowded at my grandparents house as it usually it. it was only eleven of us there which there is usually up to 25 people there. I was very relieved that it wasnt so crowded but it wasnt the same as usuall. We sat at the table talking about old things and whats new in our lives and how were looking forward to Christmas because our family from florida will becoming back for a month.

Thanksgiving Break

When the two last days of school finally hit before thanksgiving break i was so excited. I knew that i would have a five day weekend and a lot of time to catch up on work that i have put off to the last minute. But as a few days pasted i realized i had more homework and things to do around the house then i had expected. So i tried to manage my time with Cleaning and doing work and then of course having some relaxing time for myself as well. The first day i spent relaxing the whole day which i should not have done. Since on thursday i had to spend the rest of the day cooking for thanksgiving. so the three days left i decided that i would finish up all the homework assignments that i had not done. even though i decided to do this it was not fun. it actually was very annoying and the whole time i just wanted to go back to bed and forget about it but i didnt. i kept pushing myself so that on sunday i could do nothing but relax and clean a little bit more. hopefully my plan will work out the way i wanted to.

Work overload

did you ever notice that once you get to a certain part of the semester you are just overwelmed with work? If its test every other day or having way to much homework to do or even papers due that you have put off to the last minute its always so overwelming. After a while of you actually keeping up with it you just want to not do it for one day for a break. usually these work overloads are when its close to the semester ending. when the semester ends thats when you have to quickly do those assignments that you were given in the beginning of the year and you put off to the last minute. its those assignments that you were given and you never really wanted to do because they seemed like they were going to be a pain to do. but when you notice that you have only a few days to do and a twelve page paper due you just have to stop putting it off. and finally when you stop putting it off you wish that you would have just done the smartest thing and started it from when the teacher gave it to you. so next time your thinking of putting something off remember how stressful it is when you have to do it the last few days of the semester

Taking Things For Granted

too many people today take every little thing for granted. No one really sees what they have until its gone and they can no longer have it back. I know i for sure did take things for granted until i saw how many friends i was losing and family members. losing loved ones and friends really was an eye opener for me to realize you are never really promised tomorrow. so because of that you should always live your life to the fullest because you do not know what the next move is going to be. I think peopel do not have a great appreciation for things until its to late and then it truly is to late. even if its not someone passing away in your family it could be another thing such as how good you may have it. some people complain because they do not like the type of car they have because its not nice enough but they never realize that not everyone gets a brand new car for their first car. Some people have to work and earn their things and their parents do not hand everyhing to them. but then the people that always have the nice things and the newest things may not always have the easiest lifes at home. sometimes people only get the best because the people around them are trying to make up for what they have done wrong

Picking a Major

Now that your in college there is no turning back you have to know exactly what you want to do in life. so you can take the right requirements to be successful in these jobs that you will have for the rest of your life. Now picking what you want to do with your life is more complicated then you would think it really is. some people just think they will do what they think they are made out to do and half way through that decided that they arent really interesting in that and changed everything that they have been working on which sets them back. If you really think about it you made it this far why are you going to do anything tht is going to set you back anymore. whats the point in that right now i just wnat to get school over with and start with my actual life. Live by myself and earn my own money i know a lot of people that arent like that and think they can live off of their parents money and in their house for the rest of their life but im not one of those people. i cant wait to step out into the real world and do my own thing. I want to have a job that i love and actually dont mind doing and make a good amount of money so i dont have to depend on anyone but myself for that kind of stuff. hopefully by the end of this year though i will know what type of major i want to be in

People Change

as we grow up you start to realize that everything and everyone around you is changing. sometimes it is a tough though to swollow but after a while of it you begin to get used to these changes around you. you may not like them but you can't pick what you are handed in life just deal with it. I know that it might sound a little mean saying that but its the truth. Everyone is going change and you can't fight them on that you simply just have to let them for their and your sake. The choices you make in life will help you in the long run eventually. When i was little i was a completely differnt person but the more i grow up and see whaqts going on around me i keep changing not to be the same as all the new people i meet but to protect myself from the people and things i don;t want in my life. So when things around you are changing you cant fight them on it you just got to go with whats going on and eventually it will pay off. It might hurt at first but in the end it will be worth the change

St Johns

I am no longer a Senior and the highest in the school i am back to the bottom of the "food chain" but in college they do not really care that much what you are they treat you all equal. Even though i am in a different school it is the almost the same place. See my high school is up the block from st Johns. and the campuses are very similiar such they are small. and we have a huge lawn to play on. Just like you have the beginning of the year bbq we would have a field day. The only difference is that in high school we would have to wear a uniform we were not allowed to wear whatever we liked. So see there are many things thaqt are similiar and that are not, but even though they are a like these two expeirences will be completely differnt in their own ways. and now that i have finished one chapter i am ready to move on to my other one.

Friends

Did you ever realize that when you grow up the friends that you grew up with somehow drift away. As I think back to my childhood friends and the ones i have now it seems that many of the people i used to be good friends with i don't even speak to anymore. Its not that were not friends anymore its just that were not that close anymore. If they were ever in need of anything i would try to help them as best as i could. But it just shows that the people you truly need stick by your side and are with you ever step of the way in the good and bad. They will always put up with you and even though they annoy you sometimes they will never give up on you like some of the people in your past may have. From looking back on this it made me realize i rather have a small group of real friends then a big group of people that i don't even know if their truly there for me. and i would never want anyone else to help me through these tough years then the people i have today.

Growing up

When i was growing up all i wanted to was go out and have fun not caring what happened. the more i mature now i'm starting to see where my values are and what is important to me and what is not. Now instead of doing whatever i want i play by the rules a little bit more now then i ever did. because i finally realized that everything has consequences. I guess when you start to grow up you have to being responsible for your actions. it was so much easier when your younger though. i always wish that i could go back to when i was younger and relive it again. even though i wouldnt want to go through it again i would love to just be carefree again for one last time. since now that we are in college we can't afford to make anymore mistakes.

Surprise party

Now for my birthday i wasnt really looking forward to it because it was bringing us closer to the ending of school and also my last day of orientation was on my birthday. the night before my birthday i usually spend with my friend from elemartary school we've been doing this for a couple of years now. I just wanted to be at my own house for my birthday. When i got home my sister and cousins had surprised me with balloons and the presents they had gotten me. I did not really know what i wanted to do for my birthday but i figured that some point during the day i would know exactly what i would want to do. At 6 i decided i wanted to go out to dinner with my family and my best friend. Since i had decided so late we had to wait for my dad to get home for work and by the time he got home it was 730 so when we went to the first place it was packed. so my cousin suggested somewhere else to go. we went there but by the time we finished eating it was already pretty late. and everyone was acting like they didnt want to do anything so this was jut putting me in a miserable mood. i mean all my friends didnt even come hang out they all said they had to do other things and didnt even come to my house. So i was misreable and just wanted for the day to end. Now two days later my older cousin asked me if i wanted to go to jersey to go shopping so i went with her and my sister and cousin decided that they wanted to go see the dark knight in imax. which i wanted to go to i have always been i really big batman fan. but the only thing was little. but the only problem was that they were leaving and we were still in jersey and we had to go all the way to the city. so my cousin began to fight with her brother and then finally she said that she would just drive and to tell them to wait. so we pulled up to my uncles house and when we walked in the backyard ther were all my friends. they had planned me a surprise party and thats why they were avoiding me on my actuall birthday. i was no longer mad about anything and actually extremely happy because i always wanyted a surprise party and it turned out to be one of the best nights of the summer

Beginning of the end

Summer was here and it was time to go out and do whatever you and not have to worry about school or nothing just being with your friends. Also in the summer was orientation for college and of course my birthday! from the looks of this it felt like this was going to be a very good and interesting summer it was going to be filled with fun and excitment. The summer was just like any until i found out my father had gotten me a summer job. at first it seemed like it was going to be a miserable thing that i would have to work during the summer but even though it was long hours once i got to know the people it wasnt so bad. plus i got my sister and i worked together so we would always find away to make it more fun. Even though i would work all day after work i would come home and go out with my friends from school. we tried to spend as much time together as possible because most of them were going away to school next year . in the beginning of july everyone had to go off to orientation every other week. as the days grew longer and we all started to hang out together less even though we had promised we wouldnt do that. but there were other people we had to see before we left and other things we had to do. we couldnt spend all the time together we also had to spend it with our familes as well.

Graduation

It was finally here the day that everyone was waiting for since the beginning of the school year. it was graduation, it was a bittersweet feeling we all liked the fact of graduating and moving on to bigger and better things but didnt like the idea of leaving each other. as we walked down the grass onto the stage we all realized this would be the last time that we would all be together as one class. yes we might see each other during the summer but not everyone in the class. as we continued on with the graduation the time was passing quicker then we thought. It was finally time for us to sing our graduation song and of course even though we practiced the song over and over we had messed up the lyrics. Usually when we practiced the song everyone would know it word for word and we would always joke to each other that we would forget something. and on graduation day the one day that we could not stop and start over we messed up. the families and faculty laughed at us and said that it described what type of class we were. as the ceremony came to its closing it was time for us to start to walk out. graduation was over, going to high school was a chapter now in the past. but we all promised that we would keep in touch as well as we could. especially over the summer before we made our jouney off to college.

Last day of high school

It was finally the last day of school, we had all been waiting for this day since our freshman year. it wasnt that we did not like the school we just couldnt wait to start a new chapter in our life. it was were we all sat on the floor or at the tables signing shirts and remembering all the fun things we had done during the four years together. as we started to reminisce on these times we all began to realize how much we rushed our time together to get to this point and now that we were at this point we wished we could go back. finally it was time to start going to class even though there was nothing left for us to be taught except to say our final goodbyes to our teachers that over the four years of high school watched us mature into the people we were. some of us did not want to go to class so they stayed in the senior locker room, some just stayed so that the juniors that were becoming seniors would not be allowed to take over our territory yet. finally just decided to go to our last classes of the days so we all headed to our classes in our separate ways as we did this we knew it would be the last time we would all walk on the "path" together and we all talked in a certain sadness knowing this. my last class there the teacher brought us to the cafeteria she knew that since we were seniors we did not spend a lot of our time there during this school year. so we went there for our "last meal" that we would have as a notre dame family. as we were done eating and talking to the younger students our teacher came over to us and told us we could leave whenever we wanted to class was over. even though we were done with class we all didnt want to leave, which was ironic because we would usually be running to the door when a teacher would tell us class was over. we took our time leaving this time and made sure we could use up all the time we had left since we rushed the four years so much.